not skywalker

my name is anika. a-nick-a. not a-neek-a ... and yes, people HAVE told me before that it's like annikin skywalker. but i'm not.

Saturday, July 28, 2007

I Remember ...

... Being small -- in bed -- hearing my parents downstairs fighting. My tears streamed and collected in my ears. I could still hear the yelling but eventually I fell asleep.

I Remember ...

... Being small -- in bed -- hearing my parents downstairs fighting. My tears streamed and collected in my ears. I could still hear the yelling but eventually I fell asleep.

Thursday, July 26, 2007

Eenie Meenie

Sometimes I do sexy things for my husband.

But sometimes I am putting rose petals in a trail to the bedroom and I'm wearing super high heels and he walks in the door so I run to hide because it's a surprise but I trip and fall flailing on the floor and hurt myself. That's not as sexy as the original idea.

Hip Hip Hooray.

Eenie Meenie

Sometimes I do sexy things for my husband.

But sometimes I am putting rose petals in a trail to the bedroom and I'm wearing super high heels and he walks in the door so I run to hide because it's a surprise but I trip* and fall flailing on the floor and hurt myself. That's not as sexy as the original idea.

*or maybe not even trip. I'm possibly the worst high-heel-walker EVER.

Thursday, July 19, 2007

I'm Sorry (Or Am I?)

It was my son who boo'd at your wedding. I guess even little kids know when people are faking it. I pretended to be horrified and I admonished him. But truthfully I was impressed at his comprehension of what a ridiculous joke it was.

I'm Sorry (or am I?)

It was my son who boo'd at your wedding. I guess even little kids know when people are faking it. I pretended to be horrified and I admonished him. But truthfully I was impressed at his comprehension of what a ridiculous joke it was.

Wednesday, July 18, 2007

The beginnings ...

I needed to cut the strings from my marionette.
I needed to be healthy ... In relationships, in my family, in my activities.
I needed to remember what's important. And who's important.

And I'm figuring it all out.

Wrap It Up And Put It In Your Bonnet ...

So I haven't written much lately.

I need to write.

I feel like I have a lot to say, even if no one listens.
About love, and the craziness that ensues.
About convincing yourself to love people because you think you don't deserve anything good.
About pretending.
About mistakes.
About friendships.
About healing.
About becoming yourself.
About the little boy that kept me going, and the extraordinary man he is becoming.
And about finally finding real love.

A New Beginning

I needed to cut the strings from my marionette.
I needed to be healthy ... In relationships, in my family, in my activities.
I needed to remember what's important. And who's important.

And I'm figuring it all out.