New and Improved
I'm right over here!
my name is anika. a-nick-a. not a-neek-a ... and yes, people HAVE told me before that it's like annikin skywalker. but i'm not.
Isn't it weird that it has been almost two years since a blog post? I used to love writing. I couldn't wait to write. My life has changed so much from the girl who was a single mom and looking for love and figuring out my way in the world.
Do we get boring when we get older? As our experiences change, does our ability to convey them? Is it still funny? Meaningful? Is it important to relate?
I got this from Alexandra ... And I. LOVE. IT.
Oh, I’ve grown shiftless as Little Boy Blue
(Lullaby, rockaby, lullaby loo).
Dishes are waiting and bills are past due
(Pat-a-cake, darling, and peek, peekaboo).
The shopping’s not done and there’s nothing for stew
And out in the yard there’s a hullabaloo
But I’m playing Kanga and this is my Roo.
Look! Aren’t her eyes the most wonderful hue?
(Lullaby, rockaby, lullaby loo).
The cleaning and scrubbing will wait till tomorrow,
For children grow up, as I’ve learned to my sorrow.
So quiet down, cobwebs. Dust go to sleep.
I’m rocking my baby and babies don’t keep."
~ Ruth Hulburt Hamilton
I WISH I HAD MORE TIME TO WRITE!
I WISH I HAD MORE TIME TO WRITE!
I need some garlic. But a special kind of garlic to ward off emotional vampires.
I'm currently getting all my ducks in a row to go back to work in September. *sigh* Stupid ducks. Buuuuut hopefully it will be a smooth-ish transition for me and for the kids and I won't need to take all my sick days just because I'm sick with dread and sadness.
Sometimes I find myself really reflecting on something someone has said to me. It could be a piece of advice or even an off-handed remark that wasn't meant to be sentimental at all. Words really have the power to lift you up or tear you right apart. Yesterday I had one such interaction. With a stranger, at that.
My best girlfriend said this to me a couple of days ago and for some reason it really resounded in my little black heart.
Some days you just feel euphoric like no matter what, everything is going to be ok because you know you've got everything you need right here.
So I've been taking a cake decorating class. AND LOVING IT. I'm having so stinking much fun. The other day we learned how to make a rose with icing. They look so pretty.
Some days your two year old brings the hose in through the patio door and floods the kitchen. And says "uh oh. Mess" as you're pulling out the fridge and stove to sop up all the water.
If we could compare our children to characters in Arrested Development, Jacob is the most like Michael, Joel is like Gob and Joshua is Buster.
When our little baby Josh was born, one of his feet was puffy. He wasn't in pain and it was a little bit of edema, but it was still perplexing for the doctors and pediatricians at the hospital. And then a self proclaimed new nurse thought she heard a heart murmur. Josh was immediately brought to the nurses' station but no one else could hear the murmur. Not doctors, not nurses, not even the new nurse when she tried a second time.