not skywalker

my name is anika. a-nick-a. not a-neek-a ... and yes, people HAVE told me before that it's like annikin skywalker. but i'm not.

Saturday, May 22, 2010

Ten Bucks If You Get It Right.

What is as great as having your best girlfriend around all the time?
finally peeing when you've had to go for a reallyreallyreally long time
watching your favorite movie ever
eating melted cheese
being at the beach on a sunny warm day
having all your kids go to bed early and at the same time

Wrong, NOTHING! *sigh* I miss having Stan around.

Thursday, May 20, 2010


So I was sneak-attacked. In a bad way. And the short version is this:

I was tra-la-la-ing my way through my relationship with my in-laws. We are quite different but we get along fine enough. My sister-in-law had a baby while we were away on holiday and he was born with a birth defect. When we found out, Jason asked me what he should say to his sister when he called them. "Well the first thing you need to say is congratulations. A baby is always a blessing" I said. When we got home I brought over dinner for them and a gift I'd made. I went by myself because the rest of my little family was sick and of course we didn't want to get the new little baby sick.

About a week later Jason's mom confronted us about why I hadn't said anything nice about our nephew or about my sister-in-law's new home. Wait, what?! Of course I had said the baby is beautiful! Of course I had said congratulations! I was so hurt and shocked that they didn't know my character better than that! And that my mother-in-law wouldn't know that it was a completely ridiculous accusation!

Now that the whole situation is over and I've 'made amends' with everyone I feel SO anxious about being around them. To the point of having a bit of a panic attack on the way to see them. What if I say the wrong thing? What if I don't say the right thing? What if my silence is interpreted as something completely wrong?! I hate knowing that I'm being watched like that. I hate being under so much scrutiny. And what I perhaps hate most of all is knowing that no matter what, I won't be able to do the right thing in their eyes.

As Jay* so eloquently put it: "And I'm the jerk."

*Modern Family. Watch it, love it, know it.

Thursday, May 13, 2010


I'm on a regime, guys! I don't have to do crazy exercise (who likes running, anyways?!) and I am allowed to drink the occasional beer (I've got a cold Corona with lime in front of me as we speak).

AND! I've lost 5 lbs since I started a few days ago woohoo!