What if ...

... there's someone exactly like you in another part of the world who does the exact same stuff as you and likes the same things and has the general sort of life you do? I do wonder this ...

This leads me to my next question: have you ever googled your name? I guess it's easier for someone who doesn't have that common of a name. Nonetheless while I was *ahem* hard at work today I googled my name to find a horrible and sexually explicit website of someone with the same name! Now I don't know about you, but I've always felt a certain loyalty to other Anikas, sort of like they're intrinsically a part of me or something, and that's why I find this to be so devastating!

Whatever floats your boat, I guess, but I just wanted to find some cool secret Anika club or maybe something fantastic about how everyone with the name Anika is a part of a secret royal family of a far off and exotic country and I really am not my father's daughter and I have a lot of money coming to me when I turn ... 24 and 3/4ths. *sigh*

Anyways, it's not the end of the world. But it kind of is.

**For those of you that think maybe it's my alter ego, I assure you, she looks NOTHING like me (feuf!!)!

Friday the 13th ...

In honor of today being Friday the 13th, I have compiled a list of ten things that I am afraid of (I'm sorry if some of them are politically incorrect, or irreverent, but I'm just telling the truth!) ...

1. Spiders. I don't care if they're so small you can barely see them, I'm so stinkin afraid of spiders I can barely work up the courage to squish them with my shoe (but I can't co-exist with a spider, so I have no choice)

2. Clowns. This may seem strange, but think about it, folks, clowns are extremely creepy. If they don't scare you already, imagine this: it's a dark and stormy night, you're alone in a forest, and you can hear creepy noises. All of a sudden a clown comes out of the bush and starts chasing you!! Yikes. Scarier still if he has a bloody arm right? *shudder*

3. Mosquitos. I don't just hate mosquitos, I am very seriously afraid of them. Ugh, they're such horrible little things. When I was younger and we went camping I'd smear bug repellant everywhere by where I'd be sleeping. I just can't handle mosquitos.

4. Driving in the dark in the rain. This isn't the scariest thing ever in the whole history of the earth, but it's scary nonetheless. I always envision myself getting into a huge accident or something (anyone need a ride anywhere?)

5. Semi trucks with teeth on the grill. It's just so scary looking in your rearview mirror and seeing teeth. You never know what will happen ...

6. Calling Jacob to come inside and not hearing an answer or seeing him. This is not good, I hate that feeling.

7. Dark shadowy parts of pools. I don't know why, but even in pools, Jaws scenes fly through my thoughts. And I also hate being in the middle of a lake or ocean and you're just floating there in your life jacket and something touches your foot. GAAH so scary!!!

8. I kind of have to say this in code because it's not ... nice. You know that CSI episode called "A Little Murder"? Well ... that.

9. The movie called "The Neverending Story." Ugh, it just gives me the total creeps! SO SCARY!

10. Thinking about the ingredients of mayonnaise scares me a bit. I mean, who thought to add all those things? Yikes!

Happiness Is ...

1. Listening to Jacob sing along to U2

2. Drinking a London Fog

3. Reading a really good book (or having about 4 good books on the go, as the case may be)

4. Vegging on a boat with Janie and singing at the top of our lungs and trying not to drool (ahahaha) and telling secrets and suntanning and trying not to fall out when the boys chase birds to try to get them to crap on us

5. Waking up a couple of hours before my alarm is going to go off and realizing that I still have awhile before I have to get up

6. Cute underwear (even if I'm wearing the boring-est and most plain outfit, if I have cute underwear on my day is destined to be good)

7. Writing in my journal

8. Looking at pictures Jacob drew of me and discovering that in some pics I'm blonde and in some I'm brunette

9. Coffeemate

10. Getting my wristband for the U2 video shoot (I had been so sad all day because I didn't think I'd get in, and I raced down there after work and I MADE IT!! Turned out to be one of the best nights of my life)

11. Makeup (buying it, exception to the actual cash transaction, which can be frightening, putting it on, *sigh* it's really good to be a girl)

12. Shaving my legs

13. Eating something on my top 10 list (I have a top ten list of the tastes that, if I had to have one taste in my mouth for the rest of my life, would be my top choices)


**these are in no particular order**

Some Thoughts on Bono's Birthday ...

Dear Bono,

I hope that you have a great birthday. I think you are amazing and I love you. I have never been so attracted to a man of your age as I am to you and your band mates (yes I do know what 'mate' means). But it's not only that. I really look up to you (not physically) and if I didn't have Don, this letter would be a request for me to be adopted into your family (although there would surely be some harsh Electra complex going on).

*sigh* Bono, you are fantastic. I think you are the bees' knees and I hope you have the best birthday ever in the whole history of the earth.

Love, Anika

The simplest and most important question:

What do I want?

The Mathematics of a Cup of Coffee ...

So, if you drink a half cup of coffee (as opposed to a whole mug of it), does the caffeine keep you half as awake for the same amount of time? Or the same amount of awake for half the amount of time?

And when I drink 7 - 8 cups of coffee everyday, why doesn't that keep me awake forever?

5 - 5 - 5

Reasons why 05/05/05 is going to be a good day:

1. I listened to 'Return of the Mac' in my car today

2. I forgot my lunch (which could have been disasterous, really, because I have no money to buy lunch) but ESLisa bought me a lemon cranberry scone

3. I am beginning to sound less and less like a frog, which means that my cold is going away

4. I got whipping cream on my London Fog this morning. What a fantastic idea!

5. It is payday today

6. My huge zit on my chin is beginning to disappear

she shoots, she ... rebounds

so ... the question of the hour in my world is: what is the deal with rebounds? i mean, maybe i've been on a perpetual rebound-spree since the tender age of ... 15 or so. and are they bad? quite possibly it all started with that situation familiar to every girl: the guy-in-high-school-who's-one-of-your-bff's-and-he's-in-love-with-you-and-you-don't-really-get-it-and-you-go-out-with-a-loser-and-that-bff-stops-being-your-friend-because-he-doesn't-support-you-and-then-you-finally-figure-out-that-you-love-him-and-it's-too-late. is it really all a ripple effect from that? it's a big fat mystery to me ... but they can't ALL have been rebounds, could they?!

another question: at the risk of making myself sound like a dirt (which i am definitively NOT), during the 'rebound' stage of one's life, is it kosher to become a make-out-bandit?

the way i see it ...

i've always wondered how much money is at the bottom of the ocean.
and if people see colors differently from everyone else.
and what would happen if i taught my son all the wrong words to nursery rhymes.